It's the same for me, but that all feels... very far away.
[And he pauses, hesitates almost as she speaks again, but he shakes his head as if he can sense how much of a betrayal it feels like to her when it isn't.
It isn't at all.] No, it isn't. It's not terrible, Hermione.
I believe that happens to everyone, Hermione. If you miss someone or something as intensely as you do that first day you lose it, you would never... be able to live again.
You will always miss them, all of it. It'll always be a part of you too.
[It's not so much forgetting to miss them but living. Harry understand the fear though, and he keeps an arm around her.
But once Dumbledore pulled him away from a mirror, and the memory comes to him now.] Dumbledore once told me that... It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live. They're dreams of what we can't have any longer, and... to not sit in front of a mirror aching for what has been taken isn't us choosing to lose them further.
[Hey, even Harry Potter has some wisdom now and then, some of it seeped over to him from what he's learned.]
Alright. [There's a small nod, because he knows that she's always wanted to help him carry so much and there's always been so much to carry.] I can tell you don't regret knowing, much as I know... it hurt you to hear.
[And it hurt him to do the telling, to have to hurt her with it.
And he hesitates a bit at her Oh. Hadn't realized that had slipped out at all. It's nothing said no and he doesn't know that he has words to say anything more about it, but it is... it's understood.]
We do. We have... the time.
[Harry hugs her tightly, swallowing back the emotion threatening to well up in his throat. He closes his eyes tightly, shoving it all away. There's so much.
There's always so much of it, and he doesn't let himself question whether or not this horcrux makes it unsafe for her to be so close. Years. It's been in him since he was a baby.
He pushes it all back, looking up at her when she stands and allowing her to help him to his feet.]
It doesn't fix anything but it helps us feel better. [At least for a little while.]
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Date: 2011-08-11 03:38 am (UTC)[And he pauses, hesitates almost as she speaks again, but he shakes his head as if he can sense how much of a betrayal it feels like to her when it isn't.
It isn't at all.] No, it isn't. It's not terrible, Hermione.
I believe that happens to everyone, Hermione. If you miss someone or something as intensely as you do that first day you lose it, you would never... be able to live again.
You will always miss them, all of it. It'll always be a part of you too.
[It's not so much forgetting to miss them but living. Harry understand the fear though, and he keeps an arm around her.
But once Dumbledore pulled him away from a mirror, and the memory comes to him now.] Dumbledore once told me that... It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live. They're dreams of what we can't have any longer, and... to not sit in front of a mirror aching for what has been taken isn't us choosing to lose them further.
[Hey, even Harry Potter has some wisdom now and then, some of it seeped over to him from what he's learned.]
Alright. [There's a small nod, because he knows that she's always wanted to help him carry so much and there's always been so much to carry.] I can tell you don't regret knowing, much as I know... it hurt you to hear.
[And it hurt him to do the telling, to have to hurt her with it.
And he hesitates a bit at her Oh. Hadn't realized that had slipped out at all. It's nothing said no and he doesn't know that he has words to say anything more about it, but it is... it's understood.]
We do. We have... the time.
[Harry hugs her tightly, swallowing back the emotion threatening to well up in his throat. He closes his eyes tightly, shoving it all away. There's so much.
There's always so much of it, and he doesn't let himself question whether or not this horcrux makes it unsafe for her to be so close. Years. It's been in him since he was a baby.
He pushes it all back, looking up at her when she stands and allowing her to help him to his feet.]
It doesn't fix anything but it helps us feel better. [At least for a little while.]